Shampoo anyone?

45

Forty-five months, where do I begin? 45 is a significant number for me. Personally it's a number where I never thought we would get up to. Yes, I know, there are people who are/have been waiting longer than us, but when I was thinking about our referral last year, I just dreaded this month. My dad died when he was 45. I know I really shouldn't make any inference from that, but I do. I didn't think I could be any more 'down' than I am and have been for the past 3+ years, but today sucks. HARD.

So, another month and another charm. This month I'm adding the fortune cookie charm to the bracelet, which my sister-in-law chose (a long time ago).

This also marks the last month that I'm going to be adding charms to the bracelet.

I have a number of charms saved up, but I just can't bring myself to add them. They're a little too 'personal' and we would have to be a helluva lot closer to referral for me to even think about adding them. By adding them, that would mean I would have to look at them every.single.day and it's just too painful to do that right now.

Since I haven't done this in a while...

I'm going to shake the proverbial lurker tree and see who comes out. Come on, don't be shy, I don't bite...

...hard.

Trippy...

Thank you for being a friend...

For Special K...

Yay...?

I got an email from our agency this afternoon and found out that our new update was given re-re-re-approval and we're 'in the clear' until May 20, 2012. I'm hoping that we get our referral before that runs out. I can't think of redoing all of this...again.

I feel kind of guilty posting and complaining about doing our update, when I have a friend whose dream is crumbling.

I guess I should count ourselves lucky, even though our situation is sucktacular.