Monday, May 11, 2009

Mother's Day

Yup, I'm a day late, so sad too bad.

Yesterday Josh and I celebrated Mother's Day by having my mom and her boyfriend, my brother, sister-in-law and nephew, Josh's parents and sister, and Nic, Tim and Zubin over for lunch. An awesome time was had by all, if I do say so myself. :)

It was really great getting together with Nic, Tim and Zubin, and being able to celebrate Mother's Day with them. Nic was thoughtful enough to get me a Mother's Day present, which was greatly appreciated. :)

Yesterday wasn't the best day for me. It was 11 years that my maternal grandmother passed away. Yes, she passed away on Mother's Day in 1998. So, needless to say, yesterday was difficult for numerous reasons.

It's hard not being able to celebrate with our little one. It's hard for so many reasons. We've been through a lot in the past 11 years, between our various attempts and ultimate failure(s).

It's hard to pass her room (granted we haven't decorated it) every morning and not hear or see her.

It's hard grasping the reality that this adoption, while it will happen (see - here I am being optimistic again), may not occur for a few more years.

It's hard knowing that as the year(s) pass, we get older, and many family events happen without having her here.

It's hard not having the laughter of our child that we long to hear in a big, empty house.

It's just...hard.

9 comments:

C. Starchenko, Head Scibbler said...

I understand that feeling. I go from feeling optimistic one day to very discouraged the next. MD is always kinda awkward for me, too.

Wendy said...

Happy Mothers Day. You are a childless mother that will one day finally get to see that precious little face. I'm rooting for you!

Michele said...

I'm glad you had a great time with the Martin clan. I understand the "it's hard" and it really sucks that this wait is so long. One day I can't wait to see you light up with joy when you see your child for the first time. I can only hope the time will start to fly faster for you.

M and M said...

Hugs...

Lisa said...

Thinking of you on these occassions and sending you hugs.
You're a special friend.

MotherMotherOcean said...

I am glad we got to spend the day together. I wish we had more time to stick around. I know the feeling of it being hard. It sucks.

3D said...

I am happy that a hard day was spent with loved ones.

Keep smilin!

Kristy said...

I totally understand how you are feeling, it is up and down all the time. I know I am closer to you , but on the 21st of this months it will be 37 months for us and that is not counting the six months it took me to do paperwork. But I do BELIEVE that God is going to give us our daughters and then this wait will not be forgotten but it will be over.
Love and blessings, Kristy

Dolores and Shawn said...

Sending you big time hugs.