Wednesday, November 28, 2007

Frustrated

Not with the adoption, per se, but with this never-ending rollercoaster of emotions every month. Hoping, beyond hope, that things will speed up...or we'll be surprised that the referral batch eeks towards more than a week's worth of referrals.

I was hoping that the end of the year will FINALLY see the end of the 2005 referral batches. Don't get me wrong, I'm happy for all my friends who are getting their referrals in the upcoming months, but every time I see that the CCAA (it's sad that I know that URL off by heart) is referring smaller and smaller batches, it just puts our (eventual) referral that much further behind. At one point I thought we would see our referral sometime in 2007 (don't laugh), then 2008 (again, don't laugh), then late 2009 or early 2010. I'm starting to get the feeling that 2011 is a little more 'realistic'.

If I calculated correctly, we're about 40 CALENDAR weeks away from a referral, but if the CCAA keeps referring a week at a time, we're actually 40 MONTHS away from seeing our referral...and that's assuming that they'll do one week's worth of referrals EACH and EVERY month.

Today, as usual, I checked the RQ site and saw that she's predicting that referrals might go from December 8 through December 14. Woo. Granted she doesn't put her 'reputation' (what reputation?) on the line unless the rumour is pretty much confirmed. I find it kind of laughable that while I knock her site, I keep going back for more, like one day she'll magically post that the backlog is finally over with.

Does RQ even bother to confirm anything or does she just publish it for all the (adoption) world to see, without really caring what her rumours do to the people who are waiting? I find it funny, this month, that she didn't get *any* rumours until almost the end of the month. Is she getting rusty? Is her rumour pipeline drying up? In a way, while I appreciate getting some of the rumours, it's really tough getting my hopes up and then having them come crashing down at the end when the batches come out.

I hate feeling like this. I hate feeling negative about the adoption. I never wanted this blog to become this 'tainted'.

8 comments:

Janet said...

I think we all get frustrated and "tainted" once in a while. This wait is like that. Hang in there. (we're hangin' with ya....)

Wendy said...

I feel sick to my stomach reading your post...I am so sorry that the wait is looking to drag out this long for you. ARGH!!!! Is pretty much all I have to say!

Dolores and Shawn said...

I know exactly how you feel. I'm tired of the roller coaster too. I wonder where this elusive speed up now that October and November 2005 is done.

i-Con said...

It is what it is and you wouldn't be human if it didn't piss you off once in a while....no tainting...just human emotion.

Kristine and Shawn said...

I hear you. That's why I don't post very often. I know that RQ is a rumour site but I do appreciate that there is SOMETHING out there that lets me get a little excited each month!! Referral pictures are great incentive to keep on going and going and going and going...

Journeywoman said...

It's not tainted. This wait sucks. Even the people who waited a mere 6 months knew that the wait sucked. They just don't know what to say when we're looking at YEARS.

Again it sucks. I'm here with you in the wait.

MotherMotherOcean said...

Grrrr.

PaulaBrett said...

Yep......I hear ya!